May 22, 2011
http://www.owningpink.com/blogs/owning-pink/the-war-faith-vs-fear
I read this post by Lissa Rankin at Owning Pink. I so understand her struggle. I am in the midst of the same internal war...yet feeling a strange sense of peace just like Lissa described.
It is immensely validating to read the stories of others and know I am not alone. That there are others feeling it, living it, just like me...
This is what is missing in my everyday life...women who are forging ahead towards deep, authentic living and being.
Another bit of inspiration...yes!
Sweet Little Leila
May 21, 2011
My daughter and son-in-law are in town from NYC for a wedding. And that means I get to spend time with their dog, little Leila (pronounced Lay-la). I love her sweet, sweet energy so much. She soothes my soul.
My daughter and son-in-law are in town from NYC for a wedding. And that means I get to spend time with their dog, little Leila (pronounced Lay-la). I love her sweet, sweet energy so much. She soothes my soul.
Lovely Lockets
May 19, 2011
I found these wonderful lockets over at Etsy. They are made by Liz Lamoreux. Loved them. So I bought one. I like the simplicity of the necklaces as well as the messages inside the lockets. I like having the reminder "I am Enough" so close to my heart!
http://www.etsy.com/listing/67331877/i-am-enough-a-whispered-soul-mantra
I found these wonderful lockets over at Etsy. They are made by Liz Lamoreux. Loved them. So I bought one. I like the simplicity of the necklaces as well as the messages inside the lockets. I like having the reminder "I am Enough" so close to my heart!
http://www.etsy.com/listing/67331877/i-am-enough-a-whispered-soul-mantra
Winds of Change
May 16, 2011
"It is not uncommon for people to spend their whole life waiting to start living." -Eckhart Tolle
It has been a while since I last posted. Too long.
Probably a little fear of putting my thoughts and feelings 'out there'.
Yet I feel like the flow, the current, is shifting.
I'm feelin' more confident letting others see more of me.
Can be a mixed bag though. This change thing. There is tension to hold in the process.
Sittin' in that place somewhere between comfort and safety and new, wild energy.
Hard to hold. I vacillate between the two.
I'm experiencing these changes in attitude in some pretty big areas too.
Like my career as a nurse and where I live and the kind of friends I want to be around.
But it boils down pretty simply--I. have. changed. And the change is out there. The people in my daily life have noticed.
Okaaayyy.. Where does that leave me exactly?? It leaves me feeling like I am in a foreign land.
I have been traveling down this twisting, turning psychic highway for a very long time.
I've questioned everything I ever assumed to be true about me along the way.
And I have to say I was pretty darn tired of identifying with the persona I created over the years. The false self. The person that functioned well but doesn't even resemble me in the slightest way.
It's been like, 'hey, what if I just live and breathe in the moment instead of trying to BE something in that moment'. Especially something I'm not.
More and more I'm doin' it. I'm putting it all out there. Here I am...
But friends and family have other ideas. They expect me to be the Mary I have 'always been'. In both good and bad ways. Interesting.
I can't. As crazy as it sounds I don't even know how to do the old me too well anymore.
That's progress. I sense the change in energy. In the dynamics of my relationships.
Others' perception of me just doesn't jive with who I actually am.
It is making them uncomfortable. And they don't seem to get it.
This is me.
It's like the line at the end of the old TV show "To Tell the Truth"--Will the real Mary please stand up".
And when I do...well, just like the show, most everyone looks shocked!
All I can say is that it is coming from the most grounded, centered place. Deep.
Ultimately that is so much more meaningful than the comfort of my warm, fuzzy blanket--aka, the favorable opinion and acceptance of friends and family.
Plumbing the interior depths of me has brought forth exciting creativity. Painting, drawing, writing. In turn those very creative endeavors help to keep me connected to that source of wisdom. And they keep me sane!
I love my life. I am grateful for it.
But I love what is happening.
I'm goin' with it. It's me.
It feels good. It feels so right.
I am out of the comfort zone...feeling the anticipation, the hunger, the joy, the terror...and the peace.
The peace that comes from knowing I am enough and always have been.
It doesn't matter if I stumble. If I fail. I have always been and always will be enough.
That is a wonderful new interior space to dwell in!
"It is not uncommon for people to spend their whole life waiting to start living." -Eckhart Tolle
Probably a little fear of putting my thoughts and feelings 'out there'.
Yet I feel like the flow, the current, is shifting.
I'm feelin' more confident letting others see more of me.
Can be a mixed bag though. This change thing. There is tension to hold in the process.
Sittin' in that place somewhere between comfort and safety and new, wild energy.
Hard to hold. I vacillate between the two.
I'm experiencing these changes in attitude in some pretty big areas too.
Like my career as a nurse and where I live and the kind of friends I want to be around.
But it boils down pretty simply--I. have. changed. And the change is out there. The people in my daily life have noticed.
Okaaayyy.. Where does that leave me exactly?? It leaves me feeling like I am in a foreign land.
I have been traveling down this twisting, turning psychic highway for a very long time.
I've questioned everything I ever assumed to be true about me along the way.
And I have to say I was pretty darn tired of identifying with the persona I created over the years. The false self. The person that functioned well but doesn't even resemble me in the slightest way.
It's been like, 'hey, what if I just live and breathe in the moment instead of trying to BE something in that moment'. Especially something I'm not.
More and more I'm doin' it. I'm putting it all out there. Here I am...
But friends and family have other ideas. They expect me to be the Mary I have 'always been'. In both good and bad ways. Interesting.
I can't. As crazy as it sounds I don't even know how to do the old me too well anymore.
That's progress. I sense the change in energy. In the dynamics of my relationships.
Others' perception of me just doesn't jive with who I actually am.
It is making them uncomfortable. And they don't seem to get it.
This is me.
It's like the line at the end of the old TV show "To Tell the Truth"--Will the real Mary please stand up".
And when I do...well, just like the show, most everyone looks shocked!
All I can say is that it is coming from the most grounded, centered place. Deep.
Ultimately that is so much more meaningful than the comfort of my warm, fuzzy blanket--aka, the favorable opinion and acceptance of friends and family.
Plumbing the interior depths of me has brought forth exciting creativity. Painting, drawing, writing. In turn those very creative endeavors help to keep me connected to that source of wisdom. And they keep me sane!
I love my life. I am grateful for it.
But I love what is happening.
I'm goin' with it. It's me.
It feels good. It feels so right.
I am out of the comfort zone...feeling the anticipation, the hunger, the joy, the terror...and the peace.
The peace that comes from knowing I am enough and always have been.
It doesn't matter if I stumble. If I fail. I have always been and always will be enough.
That is a wonderful new interior space to dwell in!
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